Spirituality and healing

How much of this affliction that ails me is spiritually based? Science has been trying for centuries now to show the existence (or lack of) of the soul or spirit. Many people find that they feel better with a spiritual practice of some kind, feel more whole when they do something to address an inner desire to connect the dots of their physical, mental and emotional lives to something bigger and more all encompassing than just themselves.

I go through phases where I do things to feel more one with a more universal power. Sometimes just riding public transportation helps - I feel part of a larger body of humanity, all of us going in the same direction without necessarily ending up at the same destination. Other times I get a great sense of peace and calm walking through nature, though a beautiful wooded area or large garden. Sometimes I get that feeling just looking over the horizon and seeing a vast landscape, feeling like a little speck in a large expanse of life that will go on without me. (That especially feels like it takes the pressure off ME- it lets me KNOW that life will go on after I am no longer and that its ok to take things at my own pace. )

I've tried more conventionally known spiritual practices. Christianity- attended churches and even belonged to several different denominations of christian churches at different times in my life. I've investigated Buddhism, Judiaism, Meditation, New age ideas, Metaphysics, astrology, and have done past life regression. All so I could get some inkling of what its all about, what these inner feelings are all about.

As in everything else DDNOS, its not easy keeping consistent, or even remembering that I have spiritual needs. The important thing, I guess, is to attend to them when you do remember. And to enjoy them when you do.