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Last month I was going though a depressive spell. It lasted 8-10 days, I was getting worried for myself. Was very low, indeed. Wasn't eating much, and what I was eating wasn't healthy. As a lifeline, I reached for some comfort food, one of which, for me, is some old fashioned tomato soup. I heated the soup in the microwave, in a coffee cup, and with it at the right sipping temperature, I took a sip.
Instantly my entire mood shifted, my vision cleared and I took on an entirely different ego state. For several weeks after that drinking in of the tomato soup I was energetic, tackled the very needed spring cleaning of my place and generally was not depressed. The change was amazing! And the switch was so obvious to me internally that I had to re-evaluate what is really going on with me these days. Not that I have any answers. Just many more questions.
Anyone else ever have such a clear switch? What did/does it mean for you?
4 months ago
5 comments:
I understand what you mean when you described this kind of switching as more obvious and perhaps indicative of a greater change. I have had 4 or 5 such switches over the last 25 years (I'm 42)and each one did represent a significant shift as to who was more "in charge" for the months that followed. Each event had an obvious physical component - one felt like a dark cloud lifting; a couple felt like I was being engulfed by a large wave; the others were like a light switch had been suddenly turned on.
Yes!
There were times in the past when switching was more frequent that sometimes it was like someone had turned up or down the lights.
Sometimes I chuckle that maybe I'm harboring a student film maker inside who likes to experiment with light quality.
I'm so glad I found your blog. I am struggling with the same things. Lately, I have experiences of switching abruptly quite frequently and it is bewildering to say the least.
The most recent was a couple days ago...I came to work in a really depressed state. The previous day had been very difficult. I didn't want to talk to anyone, and fortunately I don't usually have to. But on his night a co-worker started talking to me. At the beginning of the short conversation I was just being polite. Just a couple minutes later I was in a happy, almost jovial mood. It was astonishing. I can't explain it.
Leslie -
Amazing, isn't it how flexible our moods are.
I'm glad you commented and please feel free to do again (and again.)
hey,
I also recognize this kind of switch (I've been diagnosed DDNOS, amongst other things), but in my case music (not food or anything) is the trigger. this extreme mood switching can last hours, but sometimes it takes days for me to feel a little bit more like 'myself' again.
I'm very glad I found this blog and to read more from people going through the same things.
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